Counting the days

No place is better than home!
I have around 50 days to go before I can fly back home! You can't imagine how I feels looking forward to that day, and yet... afraid its will just past too quick. I am entitle to have 2 weeks holiday (home leave) after 4 months straight working here - thats according to my contract. Unlike others whom fortunate enough that they spent 30 days here working and another 30 days back home! And I think I deserve more than just 2 weeks home leave. Well, thats what I want ...and 2 weeks wont be enough!

2 weeks ... withs such limited time... and soo many things that I want to do and to go... why.. oh why..
I am starting to plan in my head. What I should do, and where should I go... I must go back to KL and hope to have at least 1 Sunday service at the Bridge!.. How I desperately longing for TBIC kind of Sunday service. I only went 1 time to church that they have here. Its all tooo... er I don't know what the kind-er word for "dull", but forgive me.. it is how I feels sitting in that church. And I am sooo discourage to go there again. And they make me feels like an outcast when no one is dare to sit two step radius around me!!

And the talks with my fellow Sarawakian who have been to Ba'kelalan lead me for planning a visit to this place. I heard a lot of good feedback from people that went there. And since it is where my "race" are concern... it wouldn't be good not knowing or been to such place and talks proudly about it.. right? right?

Oh dear... everyone here keeps asking me what I've been eating or what is my weight...Seriously, isn't that sort of thing suppose to be sensitive to people that are slightly heavier like me? If it is... these people are very insensitive for mocking my good look and rounder shape. right? Well, its just the way they can find to make jokes with me.. I don't mind at all... as long as they listen follows with actions. Man... seriously I need to lose some weight!

Here goes another update

At last, I manage to do a little update on my blog. I know, its kinda lame for me to updates after such long hiatus.

Here I am... adapting to my new environment and a new place. I am now in West Papua, working for the "sun rising" company in the 3rd/4th largest population in the world... and basically.. out of nowhere.

Its been more than 3 weeks now. The familiar faces working with me does help me a lot adapting to this new environment. I event start to grow beard! Missing the simple thing back home and missing my friends and family... not to mentioned I am in the 1% minority in this place. Naturally, I tend to make friends with those 1% minority group of people. Not that the local are not that friendly, they are in fact very warm and respectful people. And very competitive on Badminton I must say.

So... how do I look like? Tze Ee comments on my photo in the facebook that I updated, said I look like a Japanese. I take that as a Complement. And Vincent said.. I look like a man now! hahaha.. Probably I look like a boy before than. Or maybe its something to do with my beard. Or the Safety measures that I need to put on every time I go to site. You know what they say.. walk the talk. Can't ask your man to wear something when you, yourself don't wear them, right?

10 long working hours everyday (thats include Saturday and Sunday) qualify you to be a workaholic. And 4 months or 6 months (in this case for the local) without booze and an opposite sex relationship qualify you to be a monk! Seriously, this place is like a prison... and staying in a dorm like Camp. Well, probably a little higher than a dorm standard. Its feels the same. And your main priority after finished that long working hours is to have enough sleep. I know.. its kinda boring lame life. But this is the choice I make. As long as I get big buck huh? I guess, in a way... He answered my prayer. Let just say... I only need to work 6 months and I get the same sum of 3 years working in KL before. Not to mentioned, I need not to spend a single cents the whole time I'm at this place.

The only reason I talk about that $$ is because, it is my motivation to stay on.. no matter how hard it is. No matter what I'm missing back home during these whole 4 months.. or how badly I miss everyone... or how I'll be alcohol free for the next 4 months... Thats what encourage me. Forgive me if thats offended you... I am just being truthful.

Basically... its not that bad. I try to make something different in my life. To prove to myself that I can do this. I try to take it one day at a time... If I try to think about it the whole time.. I'll probably be soo stress and crazy. My motto is.. If they can do it, Why Cant I? Simple, yet its enough to give me the confidence... for now. Ok. I think, this is enough for now... cant use too much of my 10 working hours... well, actually I have to work 11 hours everyday, so I can earn 1 hours overtime. Not by choice ... just that everyone goes back to camp at the same time. My site Manager asked me to take more overtime these couple of days.. i.e.. working till 10pm... I don't know.. I dont want to sound greedy by agreeing or lazy by refusing at the same time. Complicated huh? Well.. probably just in my head.

Its me ... signing off for now.
Safety 1st! ;)

brief update

Hello blogsphere... its been ages since my last post here. And there's been a lot of "historical events" happened. Sorry for my passive posting... am just too lazy to write and when there's a long gap of not writing on blog.. those gap automatically just keep stretching and stretching and stretching.....

Ok, a brief update;

• I am back in Kuala Lumpur now. Staying at my sister Elizabeth house at the moment.

• I had Gallbladder removal surgery last two weeks, and I am on the road to recovery.

• Will fly to Jakarta on the 29th February of everything goes as plan, which I need to collect my Visa in Singapore before I'm heading there. And what keeps me going to Singapore? is the document I need to present to the embassy.. so, I'm waiting and resting...
  

Well, if you're on my facebook, you would probably know whats going on...

Sorry for a lousy post... Facebook have more fun and responsive games application on them... which makes me lazy to write in here. ;p

till than, will update a decent one soon... or later hehehe

Plans.. non materialize yet

As the neighbors' dogs outside barking, my mind create its on imagination... how romantic it would be if its the sounds of wolf howling at the full moon. or the sounds of owls trying to tell you that they're on watch. I have nothing worth to read at on my blog.. yet I am here writing every single thoughts in my head. Its already January 14, 2008. I was here..when? well, its probably over 2 months by now. Nothing significant changes yet. I don't feels like I've been away from my "home" as I am surrounded with my nephews and nieces.

I've been spending my days teaching my sister-in-law driving, being their personal driver when they need to go to places that they need to go is too "challenging" for her to drive, and spend ours in CoffeeBean while waitng for them to be done, Spending my every waken moment watching every single movie on the astro (when I'm not out driving)... playing this meaningless (yet fun) Human pet on the Facebook... where I to go from here?

Am I being ungrateful for having such easy life? or its right for me to feels that... he is holding me up here. No...I refuse to think that! I such a selfish brother wanting things to go the way I wanted. Yet.. he's not entirely to be blame... I didn't communicate of what I want. But than... when I said something... he always have something for me not to think otherwise. Ahh... I have no understanding of these rambling myself.. just being frustrated and bored I guess.

Well, as he planned it. I will be joining him on the 25 along with my brother in law, who is on his break here. And before I can follow him... I need my working visa. And I need to take it in Singapore! Why? I do not know know. So, since I am going to Indonesia on the 25, I planned to be in Kuala Lumpur earlier. Or even to catch my friends Ivy & CK's weeding.

whats with these neighbors dog? they are still barking!! and it is already 1am!!

Ok. Back to that thing... I am yet to do a couple of things to get my documents in order. So, I know that issue is holding up me right here. Why didn't I do it earlier? hahaha... you know me. I am a big procrastinator! So.. thats probably answer the question. And you know... Watching the drama on TV is very busy things to do... those tons of tv drama out there... somebody got to do the job to watch them all you know.. hahahahaha

So.. thats the plan in January* so far... if its happens, praise the Lord!... if not.. maybe he'll asked me to wait for him again to return next month? will see... I already upset my sister so much for not being there, for forgetting to call on important dates stuff like that. I am not feeling very good being ME at this particular moment. That why this post sounds more er.. dont know the word. who cares! Every1 hates me.. why I don't I just hate myself for this seconds.

ok. done with hating,...

Dont worry.. I would love myself back... by going to bed now..

I can't wait for Brothers & Sisters S02 E10 comes out!! (its my uttorent/limewire language)

Good Night!

I got hooked with Human Pet on Facebook

If you have a face book account.. you might try this game. Its called Human Pets. I got up in the morning.. the first thing I check on my computer is the Human Pets in the Facebook! and the last thing I do before I went to bed is.. yeah.. I check the human pet! Its addictive!!! When you keeps buying and buying.. its get more fun when other bid on you too! its like going for shopping... hahaha

Here is current long-running-owner of mine.. his name is Anders Wittrups from Denmark! He owned me since my value was 100 points.. and now I am at 1500 points. I try to behave to keep him buying me... Good to have a nice owner like him.. hehehe. Although, I am not high lah compared to those hot chicks and good looking guys out there. But it sure making feels ecstatics and happy! Thank you my "danish treat"
Here's my current owner..
Not to forget others who bid on me.. like dalantau.. etc.. thanks man!

Now I got Immanuel hooked to that games too! He said, he enjoyed playing the game that he didn't do any single work! Man.. I'm such a bad influence!

Did I make you play the Human pet game too? Damn... I'm good!

He said Tioman! Malaysia !!

I was watching Brothers & Sisters S02E05 (my guess is Season 2 and Episode 5) , which I downloaded from the limewire... And the brother said he is in relationship... meet in Tioman, Malaysia!! Wow... seems like they know about Tioman Island..

Have you watched Brothers & Sisters yet? man... its soo good. I watched it on the astro one time.. it was about their mother's surprise birthday party. From then on, I looked them up in the internet... trying to download some from the limewire... I just couldn't get the season 1... I want to watched it from the beginning.. I want to know who William is.. how he died.. why everything they do got to do with William death? is he the father? or.. one of their brother? or Brother-in-law?
I've been looking around the DVD shop here on Brothers & Sisters. I even have the owner my number to call me if he have them from his supplier. Hey, I never seen that guy on the top picture.. at the lowest bottom in the middle .. probably he's William?
Here are the cast members...
My prettiest cast... she's not one of the sisters, but she is in the family. I yet to figure that out..hem
And the youngest... from the Astro, It said he's alcoholic, just got back from rehab... than in season 2 he was a drug addict? man.. being the youngest in the family.. they sure know how to make him the black sheep. hehehe.. Cheers Justin! the mother is the coolest.. I think.

For TZ here's Sean Faris steamy video...

Sean Faris Strips
Uploaded by bulge_guy

YOu got Sexy Mole?

Continuing what I wrote about this cute sexy smile of Sean Faris in the "Mine, Yours and Ours" last night...as Sexy as Neve Campbell sexy eyes..

If you haven't have a clue who am I talking about... here's his face I "borrowed" from the internet.
Anyway, when I was cleaning up my blog, I come across the picture of nuffnang's founder picture... and he got the same moles on his upper lips! (upper right lips!)

see!!!

Anyway, after looking at his mole... it sort of remind me of the famous Singaporean comedian! Pua Chu Kang!!! ... hehehe.. well, its a fake mole, I mean Pua Chu Kang's, but I can't help it that Timothy's mole remind me of him! why Sean Faris mole didn't remind me of Pua Chu Kang?? instead of Neve Campbell Sexy eyes???!!! you could just stare at those sexy thing for hours!

Anyway, I got a very tiny mole myself on the lower left... hardly visible. Just to make myself included in this "moles makes you looks sexy" hahaha...

By the way, on my search on Mr. Sean Faris is... I saw one steamy video of his.. must be from one of his movie scene.. quite HOT and SPICY! grrrrrr..... look if you can find it yourself... ;p

Gone... but not forgotten

Don't be so shock, yeah, well... I'm writing a blog entry again..

Blogging... seems less fun these day, compare to watching movies, driving around... eats.. sleeps. I won't give any excuses... its just me being plain lazy. To prove how lazy I am... I gain more than 10kg!! in the pass 2 months. how I know it? If you know my Big-heavy nephew Julian... I am only less than 10kg than his weight! and a 2-3 inches difference on the waist size. Well, thats my physical development updates. hahaha.. FYI, I do cycling around this neighborhood just to slow down my recent 'physical development' until the stitches on my toe fully heal. (Oh, by the way, I just had a minor skin removal surgery on my toe last 10 days) And than, maybe I go for swim.

Do you noticed a little changes on my blog? I am doing some cleaning up. Its kinda hard to delete the blog link that I found thats its no longer there, or the blog that restrict public reading. Its just that... I feels it the only connection I have with these people that I know since start blogging. And by deleting the links... means, there no longer connection, there's nothing to read about their life anymore.. isn't that depressing? Well, it is to me...

Its raining outside, and I am on the bed writing this blog entry... I sort of remember a girl in the similar situation once and wrote a blog... I found her writing very creative and entertaining. Well, that is before she restrict entry to her blog. :( and that why its kinda sad for me to delete her link on my blog.. its like I giving up hope that she let me read her writing. Anyway, I know she's having a good life right now, going to college and stuff like that. Its probably time for me to say.. good bye Ash...


Do you know Sean Faris? I watched this movie called " Mine, Yours and Ours" and I kinda love looking at the smile... with the a tinny dot on the upper lip.. I find it sexy... like Neve Campbell sexy eyes.. hahaha.....

I'll continue later... being the only driver with a driving license in the house, kinda make me a chafeur for this household... or you can call it "a private driver"! LOL..

Later....

Oh, Happy New Year!

No more Exam!!!

At last!... I did finish my exams today!!! ..Although I know I did poorly, but its all over now!! thats what matter. I just hope I pass them all.. never mind without the flying color. hahaha.. Just hope the English people that marking my answer could read my 2 hour speed answer writing and agree with them all, even it my sound a bit foolish! hehehe..

All I know is my preparation wasn't that well enough. There are chapters in the text I left untouch, which I have to come up with some my own sense kinda answer! Oh dear.. I know! You must wonder how did I manage to get the my Dean list huh? probably I bribe my Prof.. or slept with them?? hahaha... I am sooo tired and sleepy... I kinda write every little though cross my mind. You see how unintelligent my mind is? Unlike my best buddy Immanuel who have an IQ score of 124! We both dont look like Dumb and Dumber! more like the Dumb and Genius odd friend! lol

Now... its another Week before Christmas! I just remember that when I received a Christmas wishes email from my brother Jeff Taylor! He was at the airport writing the email on the way back to his home.. America. Never miss spending Christmas with his parent and family there... sweet son! Now... er... yeah, Christmas! I haven't decide yet whether to go back to Lawas yet. If I do, I'll be driving with my nephew Julian going thru Brunei border.. which probably takes 4? 5 hours? am not sure... somewhere around that. Not too keen going back thou.. My sis Magret alone will coming home this year... everyone else.. celebrate this year Christmas where they are right now.. except for sis Eliz family, which they'll be flying to UK on Tuesday. I sure miss my little sweet pumpkin Natasha and my favorite nephew William this Christmas.

God... Its hard to believe I been here for more than a month now.. was is nearly two months now?. Life back in KL seem ...like another life time...

Well, am planning to change the look of my blog... kinda look boring to me these day... dont you think?... hem... I think I'll it later.. and bit my bit... I want to just go out... just say.. the kids here are out of my control.. I rather go out than straighten them up... you know me... ;) maybe I go visit Moses... and have pork bbq! hehehe... oh yeah.. they have plenty here.

K.. see you later...

No updates for awhile

just to let you all now.. there wont be any updates in two weeks to give ways for my up coming exam...


wish me best of luck!

My facial hair

As promise, here's my facial hair picture taken just a moment ago. My nephew, Keith and my sister-in-law, Lea are laughing at the picture... Thats only mean one thing!.. I got to shave it in the morning!! I know my nephew will be the most happiest person to hear this news and relieved. Coz I've been using my facial hair to wake him up in the morning... like brushing my beard on his check or on his back. Surprisingly, my beard will pass thru his shirt and poke his skin! hahaha... Love seeing him squirming and fighting to get away from me... hahaha..

Well, I only need 2 days to let it grow, long enough to make the same effect. What do you think? should I keep it or should I loose it?

My self image cam-whoring in the bathroom.

Random pictures in my phone

Here is my posting for today! pictures from my 1.3 megapixel with 4.5mm zooming phone-camera... Enjoy!

My Niece (Neeva) smile for my Phone-Camera! Such a sweetheart!

My niece (Nadia) a Camera-shy girl. Yeah right! She have full of her self-picture in her lap top!

My 7 years old niece (Megan) is a thumb sucker! hehehe got cha!

My Nephew(Jonathan) in his underwear show-off fashion.. hahaha! told yea I gonna put this up in the internet!

My study-text Book...*Yawn*

The one and only Sarawak "Tea Peng Special"

P.S. I'll post my-self image soon. with new growing facial hair!!! just experimenting.. how I look like with these hair around my lips!.. well, I just sooo lazy to shave these days..

Good night. and thanks for dropping by..

I am a terrible student!

Seriously, being a student (again) is something I'm not good at. Did I mentioned to you that I'm a big procrastinator? Well, I only have class on weekend, and I have plenty of time to make myself ready for the next class or do revision on the Chapters that we have covered. Its already Thursday!, I haven't finish reading all the past 4 Chapter, not to mentioned I skip Chapter 1, because Legal framework is kinda boring topic for me. What with mens rea? or onus? or "practicable acceptable"? or "without a reasonable doubt"? these are new legal term for me as to understand the importance of the field of my study.

Yesterday, my brother told me me that there's new post awaits for me in papua.. What I need to do is, to pass this examination on the 15, 16 and 17 December 2007! How if I didn't pass? Haven't thought of that possibilities. My aim now is to get thru this course. And My sisters were planning to celebrate Christmas this year here in Miri Town. I was kinda looking forward to drive crossing Brunei and Limbang to reach Lawas. Now... everyone will be flying here! no chance for me going back than. Well, this is just in the planning process as need to buy ticket for my parents and my younger sister with a couple of niece.

Yesterday I was at my sister Susan new rented house. Its a double story and a single standing building which they are asking for RM750 rental only! You would never find such big and cheap rental in Kuala Lumpur! My super economy flat rental is rm450! and add additional rm300 to get a big house like that.. not In KL.

Oh gee.. I must continue my revision. I haven't done any exercise even! Gosh... I only have today and tomorrow! I have only myself to blame.. Been preoccupied myself with the internet, Computer Games, Watching movies with my nephew. Oh I have to call Seth? Sept? My cousin's Son. He wanted to meet me. Last I meet him was like 9? 8 years ago? and He was just a young boy. And he's now in a College! When I spoke to him on the phone yesterday, he sounds different! well, I cant remember how her sounds like.. man.. anyway... gtg.

Will write again soon.. Be safe!

1st day in Class

Today was my first day in College after like 5 6 years . The feeling of being ridiculously sweaty palm and uncomfortable with others 14 other strangers just creeping inside of you. Ah well, its the crazy me-self again! lol

It started of with the normal introduction of the course and our Lecturer of that day. Majority of the students are more older than me, and have mix background. There were even a number of ex-bankers for many years who just recently quit their job and decided to do this course. I guess, it never too late than.

For me, the lesson today kinda hard to totally absorb everything at once.. new vocabulary fill up my head.. mostly are Law terms that its related on, which is super extensive! I am super illiterate in Law stuff... It will needs extra super duper efforts on my side to makes this work. And its very interesting .. kinda fascinated me too. I gave few nervous laugh when my lecturer going thru the subjects on high speed to catch up with the time. They keep telling us that they will help us to pass the exam, which at end of the class they gave quite load of assignment. Probably thats the only way to pass the exam-by doing lots of assignments!!!

Geez, I didn't aspect them to be that easy, just didn't aspect it will be this hard. Er.. isn't that the same thing? Hahaha.. One thing I must comment on is their poor time management which result in a poor quality of teaching presentation. And also translate as "these you can read them yourself" for my lecturer to finish teaching. You see, they got to cover the whole thing that they suppose to teach that day as they only have that time. Ain't going to see him again for the next class! That is just great huh? What if I need more explanation? Well, there's Dr. Peter for assisting us... Hope he's super brilliant at this area. Besides, having the title "Dr." surely give me some peace of mind ay?

Lets hope tomorrow getting better. Gotta read my today lesson again and hope I can recalled them all on my finger tips... ce ya!

Naughty Saturday

Good morning!

To start off the day, here are couple of recent video I experimenting with my Nokia Phone with my nephew Keith being the subject. or victim?

Keith Confessing his desire to have a girlfriend. yeah.. He's only 14!


Keith is showing how to do magic

Hello.. back to blogging!

Dear friends and family,

Soo sorry for my no-updates here. I know its been 2 weeks since my last post. I know I've promise to write and updates you guys.. just never got the chance to. Yeah, excuses, excuses, excuses. LOL

Anyway, My home internet just got connected, and here I am trying to put some words of my whereabouts. So, I have registered at the college and my class start tomorrow. I don't know what to aspect right now... just hope I can adapt and get myself familiarize with this new field.

Oh, did I tell you I got new Laptop? hehehe... HP Compaq Presario V3000!! with Intel Core2 Duo! Which cost me RM3.6K. Its really nice... clean and handsome. me like it!! With this fast internet and nice laptop... I love it!

My place in KL... decided to give it up, and my sister will take over the rent. My sister will use my stuff there and I just make do of what I have at the moment. Have no time flying back there and packing. My sister Elizabeth have been calling me like everyday. She kinda miss me.. How I miss them too.. hearing William and Natasha's voice makes me missing them more and more.

Oh dear... I wouldn't know how much I miss them and my friends there once I got here. I sooooo missss you all!!

but don't worry. I'm doing fine here. My brother's and sister's kids keep me busy around here. I already got myself familiar with the road and places around here a bit. Got to drive out more often.. than, maybe I can master the road in this Miri Town. Something to keep me preoccupied.

this is for now.. will keep you guys posted.

Love and Blessing,

Musa

The Day Before I fly

I had sleepless night these couple of days. I am about to go-out from my comfort zone.. and thats probably the main reason. Well, besides the annoying mosquitos feasting my blood.

Well, Yesterday... Was really really busy and..makes me tired.
Here's summary of my yesterday,

9am-11am: badminton games with Gina, Ross and Tess (yes, I was the only man!)
12pm-2.30pm: Fetch Natasha from School, and had Lunch at KLCC with the Girls! than Shooping a bit, and fetch William from school at 2.30pm.
3pm: went to Ampang Point to shop some more, and repaired my glasses.
5pm-7pm: Went to church setting-up for Alpha.
7.30pm -10.15pm: At Sophie house for Holowen Party! I drank 3-4 glass of red wine, 2 slice of Argentinian beef, which is RM95/kg!!! but nyum nyum!!
[Dear friends that planning to hangout with me last night. Sorry for unable to go for coffee with you guys. Wasn't planing to go to Sophie's Holowen party, supposed to end by 7.30pm and I would have the dinner with the family earlier. Sophie's son got accident and had to rush him to Hospital. So, we stayed untill they got back at 9.30pm!!. Soo sorry]
10.30pm: Dinner with my sister Elizabeth family. We had Roasted Lamb.. Yeah, I am was very full after having dinner 2 times! Thanks sis!
11.30pm-2am: Hanging out with sister, pop corn, 2 glass wine and play cards!!
2.30am... went to bed... but the mosquitos are really loving my blood! hardly can sleep!

Did I mentioned that I haven't pack yet by this time???!!!!
I am such a big PROCASTINATOR!!!!

Well, I just start packing this morning. And found out that the bag zipper's are broken!!! Oh.. that just great!

And I loss my copy of my flight booking... thats why I'm here, getting my flight booking number from my email... and updating my blog! got it.. and back to packing. Don't want to miss anything that I might need for all occation. And search for bag!

Everything seems to be out of place... God, are you trying to tell me something? hehehe...

On other note, Thanks Ps. Todd for your entry in your blog about me... Thank you so much. And Thank you for keeping me in your prayer. I really appreciate it...
Will try to updates with you guys... stay errr coooool... hehehe

Adios,
musa signing off for now~

Flying again

I have booked the flight, I have bought the ticket.

1st November, 2007, I'll be flying to Miri...

Will share with you all more.. am off to practise at church for tomorow sunday service.

Cheers

Alpha Weekend Away photo.

I just open my email today and got this picture from my pastor of our group on Alpha Weekend away in Awana Genting. Another great Alpha Weekend!

And here is another video that we took in Phi Phi Island.. my first Fire Show! Awsome!

Updates on holiday!

At last! I got the pictures ready. This is my favourite picture.. the four of us-travelling companions; TZ, Richard, Ian and myself!

To bring you to the place... here's a video cam I captured right after I reach the top. The background sounds.. it's me.. being out of breath, the wind and the other tourist up there that time. Will post some beautiful picture of myself when I got the time.




If you want to see more.. I had put some pictures in my Facebook account and flickr to share with. Cheers