Saturday, October 01, 2005

Dead Memory

There's something you have to know about me. Its bugs me sometimes, and worries me. Ok, I got to let it out. Its not something important to you, but Its really bug me. Well, the thing is, I have a very bad memory. seriously! stop laughing! its not funny...

Like this song I heard today, I remember the title, it was "The speed of sound". but I just can't recall the brit group who sang the song! I know it, but can't tell what its called. And like this bread butter puding, bownies, lagsania, pasta, (see? I only can name a few!)... name of the foods or dishes that I can't recalled sometimes. Or, who's my relatives.. like the other night, when I called my cousin's, Doug, and he was trying to tell me this person who relates to me, he gives his name, where he come from, how I'm related to him, and he remember me! And you know what? I haven't got a clue who he is. Its scare me not to remember sometimes, you know. Maybe , its something like a simpton. You know what I mean? Although its nothing so inportant to remember about, just that, why can't I remember them ay? I... I can't picture how my late sister looks like.. God! I think I'm terible person. I miss her but can't remember how she looks like... God! I'm terible, horible brother!

My late sister, Jeany. Died of ovary cancer at the early age of 20. God! I don't even remember her age that time! I can't remember what month! what year!.. maybe it was in 1997?98? God!! I'm sorry sis... I don't know what happens to me. I don't know why I can't remember sis. I'm sorry...

Remember Cheryl? your best friend? I remember her sis. She's so pretty just like you were. you both are soo tall and has very long hair... I speak to her today. She was suprise to received my call. And she's very nice too, just the way I remember her. You know, she remind me of you... I feel bad, for need to remember you by her. You know, I've been wondering what if...what if.. things have been different. What if you had goten away from that heartless, cancer... why? you were soo young. You're the one that make it thru, got the good mark... you were suppose to be the first! and I'm the second to get that scroll that we dream of! why!!!!

what if you already have your own career, staying with us...right now.. going places, listening to the music that you enjoyed...or or... you could have been marry and have a child of your own.. God, who am I kidding? You're not here!!!.................................

2 comments:

daniel said...

Sad about your sister man. Really sorry.

About your memory, maybe you should go to the doctor to check it out? Just in case if it's something serious, then you can get treated early. Take care

hani said...

try Ginkyo Biloba..supposed to be good for your memory...

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