Beautiful Monday

No.. I refuse to accept Monday as a "blue Monday"... I'm trying to apply MinKyu's positive thinking yesterday. And I think, its very good.. and I am going to apply it! Think Positive... its like ignore the bad/negative things that happening around you... and look on the brighter side. Right Minkyu? (not that Minkyu going to read this)

Its a brand new day!.. you see a clear blue sky, comes early to work, had a nice "reheat" breakfast at home and had really good rest... had nice yummy Chi Ku Teh with my pal-Immanuel... why does it have to be "blue".. its a beautiful Monday! don't you think?

Besides, I had a whole wonderful weekend.. super wonderful!

1. I had dinner at the Korean BBQ Restaurant in Ampang Waterfront with friends... 11 of us including myself, than.. Micheal's family was there too!! They're celebrating his Birthday! isn't that cool? What a coincidence that we were there! I am soo glad that we make it, and had one super feast! which, at a point of time... eating seems to be a torture!.. ) any leftover, for every 100gm, they'll make you pay rm5.. thats why we have to finish all the foods that is on the table. And I was the DBKL to clean it all up! ;p

2. I had a great Sunday.. singing and praising my Lord and my savior!.. plus I got to spent some time with His little lamb... they're soooo cute! I confuse why anyone will refuse to spent some time with them.. ;) .. I soo fall in love with this boy, Andrew, chubby little boy who is just less than 2 years old! he laugh at my funny face, he trying to converse with me...man..I want to have my own, a boy, just like Andrew... ;)

3. Lunch + Minkyu Birthday at California Pizza Kitchen, in KLCC! This eating together seems no end.. we had good time, full tummy.. getting to know each other more! making fun of one another... sooo glad to see sis. Kel Lee too! May May..where we you?

4. I had another dinner feast with my cousin.. she finish her treatment, and schedule to be flying to Miri this Wednesday, noon. My sisters, my niece was invited to my place.. and we have lots of foods!. I forgot to invite Immanuel... I slept the entire afternoon after that lunch... by the time I wake up.. we're ready to eat!.. hehehe. Anyway, my sisters and cousin and niece were making fun of my snoring!! ;p and my dear Tasha woke me up... Thank you Lord for all this blessing!

Yeah... I know, my weekend consist of eating, feasting.. wow.. I feel soo blessed!

And today, if theres no rain, I'll jog with Jaekyu at KDE... maybe just one round is enough... hehehe. I know. feast+feast+feast+1 round jog=/ (not equal) to Balance! I'll do what I can... like greg says.. walk+Jog+walk+jog.. is ok-lah! I ain't training for anything like Greg did.. just wanna remain the same size, so I don't have to buy new clothes because I couldn't fit in the old ones! hehehe.. besides, 1 round is like 2+ km!? right?

Feast +Jog = Balance?

Cousin Jeniffer is having her 3rd last radiotherapy today, and will be back to my place this coming Saturday. She looks pretty sick when I see her on Saturday. I did pay her surprise visit (without informing them that I'm coming). When her mum called while I was still driving on the 'Lebuhraya Persekutuan', she sound elated when I told her I was on my way to see her!! Isn't that feels nice that someone does feels excited seeing you? She gives me a Hugs when she open their Hotel room. Mind you, us Lun Bawang rarely shows their emotion...you know, act tough.

You see, I last see them before last Saturday was 2 or 3 weeks ago. It just that my schedule is usually pack for the weekend. So, since we had our practice on that Friday, I have the Saturday for myself!! And I decide to spend it with my sick cousin. Poor Jeniffer, she gotten soo skinny and weak. Its Ok Chow Long.. another 3 more session yeah? Her mom feeds me like we were having a feast that Saturday!! We had Mee Curry Laksa around 11am before we go for groceries shopping. She bought lots of raw fish.. I wonder where they going to keep it as their hotel room don't have any Freezer. She said... the fish are very cheap!

On the way back to the hotel, She bought a bucket of KFC Chicken!!! She told me that her birthday was on the 9th last Wednesday, thats why I didn't stop her. So, back in the PJ De Inn Hotel, She cook all the fish! Oh my... this lady sure love cooking!! (shss.. she cook illegally).. and here I am, being feed like a spoil child! Jen only can take very little food... guess who end up eating the rest? I was soo freaking full!! I have to decline 100 times before they give up pushing more food for me! Man... I eat like 2 pcs of KFC Chicken!!, the whole potato wages, Chicken pop, 1 bungkus Lun Bawang rice and a slice of the fish. Not to mention I just take mee Curry laksa before that!! I know I would surely gets headache if I didn't say stop! Like this... how to loose weight? hahaha

Feeling super guilty, when I reach home, I determine to go for a jog! Yep.. with full tummy! crazy huh? Yes, I safely make 1 round of the Taman TAR/KDE area.. there were lots of other joggers and monkey spectators! and of course lots and lots of monkey! Yeah... scary and cute!.. Anyway, I was sweating like pig after finish the 1 round jog. I was like...Run.. walk... run... walk..run... hahaha.. I can't keep on jogging.. its more like a run and walk kinda thing. By the way, I saw Hans Isaac or someone looks like Hans Isaac jogging there too. You know the good looking Malaysian actor one..

And by the time I reach home, I told my niece... "aren't you going for jog?", she was like "what the hell?".. and I told her I bump into Hans Isaac! just maybe, she'll start to go jogging too. ;p

I just read a blog entry of friend from church, Greg Boncimino, who is really into this running thing got rob last Saturday, when he went for his regular run at Taman Titiwangsa. Poor Greg... he must be devastated... Its pretty dangerous if you leave your things laying around... and those who see this as their opportunity would smash your car window and grab it. This happen as well to our friend Heather. We try our best to not give any room for this "opportunity of crime" ... still, we never know.. right? Man... this sure gives you a reason to be super mad .. and it is absolutely understanding for Greg to be mad.. feel bitter towards this country. I don't blame him.. he's a nice chap, and sh*t happens to nice people.

Mom & Dad coming to Kuala Lumpur!

"You look happy today"
Thats what my Boss says when he saw me this morning. Hemm.. Am I?
Then my senior colleague say's
"You look... different today...bright".. Hemm thats weird huh?
Probably its the new razor/shaver I bought yesterday-which have 3 blades. Or its my shirt? or my hair? I don't know.
Well, My parent are coming down for a 1 week visit! YiPEE!.. I just book their ticket online.. its confirm! I know.. in 3 months time I'll be 28! but can I just let that go and be the "suppose to be" spoiled youngest son in the family? I deserve to be spoiled, overprotected, rebellious, black sheep, ...etc boy! I demand my right! (if there is such thing)

But than again, I was thought to be what I am today, brought up in a super loving parents, sisters and brothers and sometimes, we have weird ways to show it. Don't ask me what, Brothers and sisters should be "crash-bom-bang". Thats why it call family. Am I right? or am I right? hehe.. Now, what I should plan for them? I have no idea... Maybe, a Thai massage for each at my favorite Massage parlor in Ampang Point. Then, have big bowl for lunch/dinner at the Taiwan Noodle House... then, go shopping? Well, I have nothing to worry about.. there always my sisters to plan something.

On my Cousin Jeniffer's updates, they probably be discharged to go back to my place this Thursday!! Its a good sign right? Meaning that her immune body system is back on the right track and she is strong enuf to go out! thats great ay? I thank you all for diligently praying for her. Especially to those who walks the extra mile to see her, chat with her, console her, pray for her, driving her mother around and many things that you guys did for her. Irene Lim, Loh, CK, Rachael, Joseph, TZ, Manuel.. just to name a few.. you guys are the best. I really, really appreciated what you guys did...

On other note, A reminder-Tonight Welcoming Alpha Dinner! This is a place we can meet other people (sounds like a dating-service agency; its not.. but not against it). Make new friends, and have a fun "hanging-out" with new found friends. Rest assured, we welcome all, no matter how you dress up/down, regardless of your skin colour and your age.. we always have a room for more people. And its FREE-if thats count. See you all there!!


Where: 7th Floor,Wisma Chinese Chambers, Jalan Ampang, Kuala Lumpur
When: May 30, 2007 (Wednesday-TODAY!!) 7.30pm

inquiry? direction? Call Derrick 012-389 3148 [Password: Alpha]-or myself 019 2749367

He'll make a way

Yes! Today, I manage to e-mail to all my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ of the plan. And I received a couple of positive response! Hallelujah!

In time like this... I'm just sooo in "thankful" mode. No matter how bad the environment in my work place, or how painful my body from the workout at gym, or how empty my pocket is (its only 16th of the month!! I'm soo bad at financial planning!)... I am sooooo ..grateful for such wonderful-supportive friends. Thank you Lord for this wonderful blessings...
Man.. I feels like I want to sing!!!

"God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way He will make a way...."

Faith

Once, my 5 years old Sunday School girl asked me of what the meaning of "Faith" when we come across it. And all I can say is

"Faith is Believing, even when we cannot see them, Believing when we can't touch them. Believing even when it seem impossible." (it is very important to use simple word to make them understand, and to avoid another explanation of the word in your explanation)

I know its not the best definition of what Faith is.. but its was the best I can come up with, to tell the little girl. I hope I didn't give the wrong meaning. *must learn!*

Last Sunday, when Rachael asked me of the updates on my cousin during our long waited lunch to arrived. And she asked whether it will be good to visit her at the hospital and pray for her. This is her second time suggesting that idea. The first time was when she know about my cousin.

I told her that it be great!..
But why am I delaying? I asked myself that. Why can't I just do it right away when she offered it the first time?... being busy might be just the best excuse... why am I holding this offer from my own sick cousin? Seem like I'm the bad guy here.

But, when I keep thinking... and I come to the conclusion that it because of my subconscious for myself not wanting to be disappointed.

For some reason unknown to me, I have been disappointed in the past. And disappointment obliterate my little faith bit by bit. And that will make me distance from Him... more distance then where I am right now.

God, I have such little Faith!!

I envy those people who seem innocently have such leap of faith. Believing of the impossible. I mean... I am a realistic person. I know sh*t happens. and what make it worse is, I accept it! I didn't try, and didn't pray hard enuf? or don't have the faith that He can do anything!
But I'm not giving up to learn His way... to learn more about Him... to understand Him more.. and to know my purpose. I know (faith!!), He'll show me eventually.

Now... hem, I must do something! make a path for my Prayer Warriors to offer their prayer for my cousin. And We'll be celebrating the next Christmas back home together this year!!

Cousin update

Just to update you guys on my cousin condition.
She's being hospitalize last night for having very low white blood count and some other complication. Wouldn't know how long she'll be there. But hope everything is fine. Yes.. HOPE. we still have that.

Kinda feel weird sleeping alone in my flat last night. So, decide to bunk in the living room and catching on my "Dr. WHO" DVD, been on hold since my cousin was around. "Dr. Who" wasn't her cup of tea... She is pretty much want everything goes on her own way. Please Lord, give me patient.. I need it, and have control my stupid humor on my friends. I wouldn't want to hurt anyone just for the sake my laughing desire. Thank you for making me realize that.

Weird Dreams

I do not know when I dream about this.. but the images keeps flashing back in my head, like a memory as if its ever. And in the old days... dreams do means something. And believe it or not... some people maintain this believe. Well, thats in the LunBawang communities.

What I dream about is that.... I sort of losing my hairs and decide to just totally shaved them. As far as my memory serve me right, the shortest hair I ever had is 1 inch during my University time, when I was a freshman and were asked to cut my hair short being in the cadet sort of program. Now... back to my dreams, I couldn't recall why I didn't use any mirror, but somehow, when I look at the result of my head shaving, I had shaved my right eyebrow in the process!!

You see, I had once shaved my eyebrows when I was a kid, maybe 7-10 years old. Its was the influence of too much Chinese TV drama.... and I was trying to have the Chinese upward pointy eyebrow, which.. you figure what the result could be!! Funny yeah?.. And I was sort of grounded for a week? or two until I grow my eyebrow back again before i can go to School. Thats how naughty I was! and don't deny it, its freaking hilarious! My sisters probably had the best laugh out of it.

Now, if you're have an idea or able to interpret dreams. I would love to hear it. My interpretation is that, I think too much about my cancer-fighting cousin who staying with me now. And somehow, I imagine myself in her shoe!!
Man...thats is freaking scary. My cousin is sure a fighter...
Although I keep saying to her, its alright.. its Ok.. keep fighting it... I honestly wouldn't be as strong as she...

Cousin Update

Its been awhile I didn't update you guys with my cousin Jenifer Wong condition.

As per today, she went through 3 sessions of Chemotherapy, and have been making a regular visits to the hospital and have injection. Today she going for her regular visits. Her conditions looks deteriorating everyday because of the effect of the Chemo. She have a very bad ulcer in her throat which prevent her from taking food and she looks very pale and weak. I try to cheer her up every time I return home. I really pity her mother... she try to satisfy her daughter's need and requested. Sometimes, she The pain is too much and she cries like a kid... I don't know what to do... her mom become the person she blame for everything that went wrong... for things that doesn't go as what she wanted. On some "good" days.. she chatted really animated and very enthusiastic. Sometimes, you just wish that she save the energy for the "pain moment".. but what can we do? Its a way she wants to forget about the pains.

I asked her to take a picture, but she wouldn't allow it. She is totally bold now and loss a lot of weight. The day when she suppose to have her 3rd Chemo, she loss 6kg in 1 week! So her Doctor decide to postpone it to another date. On the good news, her tumor is shrinking. Praise the Lord!
Thank you for your prayer my friend....

Cousin [Jennifer] picture

This is my cousin and her mother. I took this picture last Sunday (March 18, 2007) when I drop by right after I reach KL from Malacca. I have no update yet, they suppose to have her test result by today. Her sister's e-ching, didn't come home last night, she sms me that she wanted to spend the night with her sister. Maybe when she come home tonight, I'll have an update. Doesn't she look well to you? Hopefully its a good sign. Lets continue praying...

Jeniffer and her mom Layun at Pantai Medical Center, Bangsar

p/s, Saran this post is for you...